It's your whole... [He gestures at Arthur's face.] I get it, so I don't say anything. You don't want people to think you're gay, you don't want-- [Deep breath and a shrug] Fucking whatever, you know? But when your best mate doesn't want people to know that about him, it's hard not feeling like I should be ashamed or something.
[Eames sucks in another shaky breath, swallowing and forcing himself to continue on before Arthur can interject. He knows himself, he knows he'll try to back out of talking about this again if he stops. He looks down at the bed between them, gesturing as he speaks with a hand, the other still hugging his knee to his chest.]
And then you say you wanna try it and it's hard to even believe you, let alone thinking about all the ways you'd be disgusted or... Who knows what, if we actually tried it.
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[Eames sucks in another shaky breath, swallowing and forcing himself to continue on before Arthur can interject. He knows himself, he knows he'll try to back out of talking about this again if he stops. He looks down at the bed between them, gesturing as he speaks with a hand, the other still hugging his knee to his chest.]
And then you say you wanna try it and it's hard to even believe you, let alone thinking about all the ways you'd be disgusted or... Who knows what, if we actually tried it.