[Arthur's expression remains steady as he thinks on that for a moment and then shakes his head.]
No.
[He realizes he's tense through his shoulders and tries to relax with a deep breath, looking down at his hands and frowning.]
I can take it slow, wait til you're asleep before I...
[He winces as his own brain trips over the whole concept. He's been fighting this instinct for so long with Eames, and the one time he let it take over still causes him immobilizing guilt. He's scared of how good it might feel and how he might lose himself during the process - Eames'll drink his blood before they start to make sure nothing goes wrong but even if it goes right and Arthur enjoys it a little too much he doesn't know if he can live with himself afterwards.]
no subject
No.
[He realizes he's tense through his shoulders and tries to relax with a deep breath, looking down at his hands and frowning.]
I can take it slow, wait til you're asleep before I...
[He winces as his own brain trips over the whole concept. He's been fighting this instinct for so long with Eames, and the one time he let it take over still causes him immobilizing guilt. He's scared of how good it might feel and how he might lose himself during the process - Eames'll drink his blood before they start to make sure nothing goes wrong but even if it goes right and Arthur enjoys it a little too much he doesn't know if he can live with himself afterwards.]