eye of the tiger playing in the distance

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[Training for this team has been rougher than Eames really ever expected. SHIELD has already put him through the ringer over the years, but this dream stuff requires a lot of skills he'd never heard of before. And that's before even getting to handling it in the field.]

[Stressful, difficult, and at times painful as it is, it doesn't take Eames that long to get to grips with the fundamentals — using his powers in a dream, learning to navigate something that feels real but isn't, the right checks if he's not sure whether or not he's dreaming — he's dedicated to getting this right, absolutely willing to give everything he's got to it. Plus it helps that Cobb's usually there for the briefings, and he makes an excellent translator when Arthur gets overly technical or theoretical about the whole thing.]

[This part is another one of those things he'd never thought he'd have to learn. A frown on his face when it's just him and Arthur and the plain room they're using, because he wouldn't think someone has to be taught how to handle being killed in a dream, but apparently it's a pretty big deal. Something about being able to take it in stride, to be able to immediately move on to the next thing when you wake up, but surely when you know it's not real, it shouldn't be a problem.]

[He frowns, thumbing over a bottle of light sedative, and glances at Arthur with a raised eyebrow when he asks his question. Seeking a little more information from Arthur's point of view rather than the technical aspects of it.]

So... I have to learn how to die?

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[Arthur does the same thing he did the first two times, leaning over and asking in a calm voice:]

Are you okay?

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Yeah.

[He's probably not, but he doesn't care. Eames sets his jaw and turns his head to look at Arthur with the kind of intensity Arthur won't have seen on him yet. He literally can't move on to anything else until he has this down, so he's just going to keep doing this until he does.]

Let's go again.

[specifiercity]

[There's something very different about the way Eames looks at him and it kind of takes Arthur off guard. He studies his face for a moment but ultimately sighs and looks away.]

As soon as your pulse evens out.

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Arthur, I'm fine.

[He's not arguing exactly, it's more like he's not even fully aware that his pulse is going a mile a minute and his breath's still a little short. He's just sort of hit that point where he understands what they're trying to do here, what Arthur's trying to teach him, but he's annoyed that he can't just do it. He can't just decide to ignore that survival instinct, so obviously they just need to keep doing this until that becomes instinct too.]

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[Arthur holds a hand up as if that will make him listen.]

Eames, your adrenaline is kicked into high gear right now. The sedative might not even put you to sleep until your body has calmed down.

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[Eames opens his mouth to protest, but the comment about the sedative stops him and he huffs and gets out of his chair. He should probably stretch his legs anyway, and what better way than pacing around the room, right.]

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[Arthur sighs and sits back in his chair, smoothing back his hair. He knows the repeated use of sedative isn't good for someone in this short a time, so they only have a few more tries, but it feels like there's so much more to do. Eames is picking this up quicker and in different ways than other people have in the past and Arthur appreciates the fact that he really wants to figure it out but it's always going to take time. Time and practice.]

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[Eames eventually stops and leans against the wall, arms crossed. He's mostly evened out, but he's still amped up and that's probably going to take a while.]

Okay.

[OKAY.]

[He's fine, this is fine. He's gonna sit back down now.]

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[Arthur has just been thinking; considering how best to proceed with the slightly volatile man he has in the room with him. When Eames finally speaks he looks up at him and then gives him a short nod.]

Okay.

[He gestures vaguely.]

Whenever you're ready. I want to try something a bit different.

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Different?

[He raises an eyebrow and takes another sedative. Time to party.]

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[Once again, Arthur follows him into sleep and then they're dreaming of another room. An attic this time, for some reason, built out of wood that's old but solid, with windows letting slanted beams of light in. There's still no door in this room but there is another table with another gun.]

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[Eames makes a face this time, looking around the room suspiciously and then looking down at the table, well. Also suspiciously.]

Have you brought us to a Stephen King novel?

[He feels like he's read this one.]

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[Arthur looks around, raising his eyebrows as he inspects his own handiwork.]

No, I just wanted to be somewhere quiet and comfortable.

[He sighs and looks down at the gun, then up at Eames.]

This would be better with another person here, but I just want to try it out once. I want you to shoot me.

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Um--

[...]

[nope his brain stalled, he's got nothing.]

What?

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I think it'll help give you a bit of perspective on the situation.

[He crosses his arms and leans a shoulder against the wall.]

I'm not afraid. I know I'll wake up.

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Right...

[Eames doesn't sound so certain, but he does step toward the table to take the gun hesitantly. He glances around the room to remind himself there's no actual way in or out, something to focus on to remind himself this obviously isn't real even though the gun feels so heavy and solid in his hand.]

[He takes the magazine out, slots it back in, thumbs the safety — it looks and feels just like a real gun, which honestly does nothing for how he feels about all this.]

And what perspective is this supposed to give me?

[He has a fairly decent idea, mostly he's stalling.]

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It just reinforces that life and death aren't real in a dream. We all need to be comfortable with that concept from both ends.

[He pushes off the wall and takes a couple steps towards Eames.]

Come on. I just shot you in the head twice, and before that I asked you to fall hundreds of feet to your death.

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[Eames lets out a short laugh; that certainly should make him feel a little more willing to do this, but this situation is so artificial and yet it feels so real at the same time... It's not even that he's uncomfortable with killing somebody so much as this specific person in this specific situation.]

[He looks back down at the gun in his hands, frowning.]

You know, this feels just like a real glock.

[Of course he knows, Eames, stop putting it off.]

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That's because I've held them before and my brain's the one that put that gun on that table. It's not real.

[Arthur's patient. He'll wait as long as it takes. He'll even pull them out if he needs to, if Eames can't manage this.]

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[Eames nods, slow and thoughtful, processing the situation. He looks deeply unhappy, but he does eventually lift the gun and take aim, the only real giveaway about how uncomfortable he is being the way his breathing is so shallow.]

[That and how he can't seem to make himself take his finger off the guard.]

[If someone ever told him he'd have this much trouble shooting Arthur, he'd call bullshit in an instant, but here he is completely failing to do it. He bites his lip, jaw tight in frustration. He feels like he's been standing here forever.]

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[Arthur takes a couple steps toward him, inches from the barrel of the gun. He doesn't take his eyes off Eames' face, and his own expression is calm and steady. He knows that probably doesn't help, but part of this is fascinating to him.]

Eames, pull the trigger.

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[That isn't helping, though honestly Eames doesn't know what would right now. He keeps having to remind himself this isn't real, and it's not like he's never killed anyone before. Not a lot, and he really prefers not to, but it's never been difficult either. Which raises questions he's still not prepared to face, but either way.]

I'm not sure I can.

[A fact he sounds annoyed about more than anything.]

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[Arthur's quiet for a moment, studying Eames' face with a frustratingly neutral expression, and then he slowly reaches up to put his hand on the gun.]

Okay. Give it to me then.

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[Eames pulls a face, it's very much the same expression a child would make before yelling "I can do it myself!" but Eames doesn't yell anything. He just holds on to the gun a little longer, still trying to make himself pull the trigger, but eventually he lets up his grip so Arthur can take the gun from him.]

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[Arthur takes the gun, careful about the trigger, and contemplates it quickly before he turns it and holds it up to his own temple.]

Look. It's not real.