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vampire trash? me?
[It's been on his mind a lot over the last few weeks, the idea of becoming a vampire. Partially because he's looking older than Arthur these days, and if he lets that go on too long it's going to get pretty weird, but moreover he just feels ready]
[Anxious as fuck, but ready.]
[The idea of it is terrifying — he'd gone to Mal for an explanation of the finer details rather than worry Arthur with his questions, seeing as she's actually done it before and Arthur hasn't — the idea that he could just... Die. It's not one that sits easy with Eames. He rather likes being alive, in fact half the point of becoming a vampire is to keep being alive, for a stretch on the word, forever.]
[So he's been dealing with that a lot, pretending otherwise whenever Arthur notices him being distant or pensive so he can work out his feelings on this without any outside influence. He knows Arthur wouldn't be mad if he changed his mind, it's a huge change to undertake, but it's not that he might not want this so much as wondering if the risks are really worth it.]
[They are.]
[But now they need to talk about it, so Eames is psyching himself up to do exactly that. Offered to stay in and make dinner while Arthur's off doing his errands to give himself some time alone to think about it. Maybe making some significant progress on a bottle of wine to calm his nerves, maybe it'll slow him down enough Arthur won't realise how keyed up he is the second he gets home.]
[Anxious as fuck, but ready.]
[The idea of it is terrifying — he'd gone to Mal for an explanation of the finer details rather than worry Arthur with his questions, seeing as she's actually done it before and Arthur hasn't — the idea that he could just... Die. It's not one that sits easy with Eames. He rather likes being alive, in fact half the point of becoming a vampire is to keep being alive, for a stretch on the word, forever.]
[So he's been dealing with that a lot, pretending otherwise whenever Arthur notices him being distant or pensive so he can work out his feelings on this without any outside influence. He knows Arthur wouldn't be mad if he changed his mind, it's a huge change to undertake, but it's not that he might not want this so much as wondering if the risks are really worth it.]
[They are.]
[But now they need to talk about it, so Eames is psyching himself up to do exactly that. Offered to stay in and make dinner while Arthur's off doing his errands to give himself some time alone to think about it. Maybe making some significant progress on a bottle of wine to calm his nerves, maybe it'll slow him down enough Arthur won't realise how keyed up he is the second he gets home.]
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I'm glad you noticed.
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[It's the same when they're talking to Antonia, and Eames breathes a sigh of relief when they're in the private room. Immediately, sitting down and looking at his hands for a moment, and then up at Arthur.]
Feel like betting on whether I'll try to fight you this time?
[ha ha ha he's actually anxious about it]
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You'll think about it. It's not like you actually hit me last time.
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So you're betting no?
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[What a boring but safe bet. He can tell Eames is a little nervous though so he doesn't want to be too cheeky.]
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[Thank god there's no heartbeat to give him away anymore.]
You old men are so boring.
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You've certainly stuck with this boring old man for a long time.
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[He gives a polite hi and bye, and once the door's closed, Eames stands to get the glasses from where Antonia set them down. It's partially a test for himself, to see how well he can handle this, something he opts to do before Arth kiur can intervene. His jaw is clenched tight in concentration; it smells so good and Eames desperately wants to just pour both glasses down his throat and lick them clean, but Eames instead brings them back and hands one to Arthur.]
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[He tries to pace himself this time, taking a small sip with a soft groan-- the kind of noise he used to make when Arthur eould present him with a meal after a long day. It takes a lot not to just tip it all vack, but he's trying. He wants to see how long he makes it like this.]
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I don't want to fuck on this couch again.
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You sure? It's pretty convenient.
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Our bed is more comfortable and I don't want to hold back.
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I do like it when you really let loose.
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Let's get out of here.
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[The second they're home, it's different. Once the door is closed, Eames immediately turns to Arthur to kiss him like he's been dying to since earlier, aggressive and intense, reaching for Arthur with both hands to pull him flush against him.]
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