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eames. ([personal profile] prethief) wrote in [community profile] ruffians2017-06-05 12:54 am

cool ways to handle feelings

[It's not necessarily that he's unaware of his feelings — Eames has spent enough time actively avoiding them that he has some awareness of the things he thinks and feels and would rather not deal with — it's just that if he was about to say something he had zero intention of ever saying out loud? There's ways he'd vastly prefer to have it fall out of his mouth than during sex without his express permission.]

[Of course, he didn't exactly deal with it well either. But when it just slips out between comments about how gorgeous and attractive Arthur is, and then they both kinda freeze up? It's a little hard to ignore that intense and sudden desire to not be there anymore. Especially when he'd pegged that uncertainty on Arthur's face and ended up babbling some apology and excuse about how he forgot something and hastily pulled his pants back on and left.]

[And then he just ends up pacing the hall outside Arthur's apartment, already embarrassed and frustrated with himself, but being shirtless and shoeless with an erection that stubbornly refuses to leave doesn't help. Eames pushes his hands through his hair with a frustrated groan, thinking over all the ways he's finally ruined this friendship with his dumb, stupid emotions and it was fine until he said anything and now it's going to be awkward at best but let's be honest it's ruined it's over he should just pack his stuff and go stay with his mother.]
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[Arthur has to pull away now, because this is territory that he feels like he really has to consider as he speaks, so he slowly sits up and looks down at his lap. It's hard to suss out what he actually wants from what's just considered normal and now he feels like he has to figure that out all at once. He's never really been jealous but he's also never really thought it was realistic to think of Eames as his, as this extra level of special for him.]

Only if that's something you want too. If you're not ready for that, I get it.

[He tries to look at Eames but feels like he can't control his own face well enough to convey that he's being genuine. He doesn't want to tie Eames down in any sense. That would be so opposite of what he thinks Eames needs or wants.]
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[Arthur feels his stomach lurch.]

Let's not talk about my family.

[That's a whole other thing that they definitely don't need to address right now. It's true they might not really understand this if they're ever even told and Arthur doesn't really need to start conceptualizing all the shit he's going to have to explain if it comes up.]

I guess we should both think on it. All of it. We should just be honest with each other and we'll figure this out.
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[Arthur turns to look at Eames, and despite all of the hard questions he's run through in his head and asked aloud, he remembers the genesis of this whole thing and can't help but smile. It's a bashful kind of smile, and so much joy bubbles through him at once that he actually let's out a soft laugh, looking back down as he nods.]

Yeah. It's good.
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[Arthur laughs again and then pulls away to kiss Eames properly, feeling a little giddy as he does. It feels so good to get these feelings out and to have them returned - he can't imagine anything dampening his mood right now.]
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[personal profile] interpunct 2017-06-05 03:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[Arthur kisses him for a little longer and then pulls back just a touch, so he can talk as he noses at Eames' face.]

We should go back to bed.
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[Arthur feels energized but either would be good for him as well, thought he doesn't give much indication at all as he leads the way to the bedroom and pulls off his shirt to get into bed. He does get underneath the covers and is ready to latch onto Eames as soon as he's laying down as well.]
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[personal profile] interpunct 2017-06-05 04:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[It feels the same and different all at once, and Arthur grins as he lays his head down on Eames' shoulder. He's so warm and inviting, and it feels like a small miracle that Arthur gets to be the one to be here with him like this. Someday maybe he'll be able to vocalize that.]
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[Arthur grins and gets even closer than he was, feeling that giddiness again. After a moment he lets out a sound that could have been a laugh.]

I can't believe you said it while you were literally inside me.
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[Arthur laughs a laugh of pure joy as he wriggles away from Eames' leg but stays in Eames' arms.]

No, no, it's romantic.
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[He keeps laughing, so affectionate.]

Yeah, but that's, y'know...

[There's a hesitation in his voice but he manages it.]

Part of why I love you so much.
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It's very charming.

[Arthur says this like it might be a joke but he also actually feels that way.]
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[Arthur pulls his head away to raise his eyebrows at Eames.]

So?

[His is obviously the only opinion that matters.]

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