vampire trash? me?

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[It's been on his mind a lot over the last few weeks, the idea of becoming a vampire. Partially because he's looking older than Arthur these days, and if he lets that go on too long it's going to get pretty weird, but moreover he just feels ready]

[Anxious as fuck, but ready.]

[The idea of it is terrifying — he'd gone to Mal for an explanation of the finer details rather than worry Arthur with his questions, seeing as she's actually done it before and Arthur hasn't — the idea that he could just... Die. It's not one that sits easy with Eames. He rather likes being alive, in fact half the point of becoming a vampire is to keep being alive, for a stretch on the word, forever.]

[So he's been dealing with that a lot, pretending otherwise whenever Arthur notices him being distant or pensive so he can work out his feelings on this without any outside influence. He knows Arthur wouldn't be mad if he changed his mind, it's a huge change to undertake, but it's not that he might not want this so much as wondering if the risks are really worth it.]

[They are.]

[But now they need to talk about it, so Eames is psyching himself up to do exactly that. Offered to stay in and make dinner while Arthur's off doing his errands to give himself some time alone to think about it. Maybe making some significant progress on a bottle of wine to calm his nerves, maybe it'll slow him down enough Arthur won't realise how keyed up he is the second he gets home.]

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[Eames turns his face to kiss the top of Arthur's head. He's looking at a few hotels out on the west coast, comparing overnight stays and all that, but he doesn't seem overly interested in any of them.]

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[Arthur hums and cuddles in a little closer.]

Taking my advice?

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Sometimes you have good ideas.

[He shifts a bit to accommodate Arthur a little better and tilts his head to rest his cheek on Arthur's head.]

Plus I thought having the place to yourself for a couple of days might help you a bit too.

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Mm, I'll try and use it to clear my head.

[Arthur puts his hand on Eames' chest, trying to be soothing and affectionate.]

Did you decide to do anything else before we, um...

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Actually, I was working if...

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I could save some of my blood, if you wanted?

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[Arthur lifts his head up to look at Eames' face, eyebrows raised almost like he's touched at the thoughtfulness.]

If you want to.

[He shrugs a shoulder as a smile creeps onto his face.]

I'd love that.

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Yeah, of course.

[Eames shrugs too, looking back at his laptop.]

No idea how long it'll keep for, but it's something.

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[Arthur lays his head back down.]

Couple months or so, but it's better the sooner you drink it.

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[Whatever. He doesn't care right now.]

How about you? Anything on your mind you want to talk about?

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[He takes a deep breath as he thinks about his answer.]

I don't know, I haven't really figured out which parts of my stress about this are worth talking about.

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[Eames nods in understanding and puts a hand on Arthur's thigh, giving it a gentle squeeze in reassurance.]

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I called Mal last night. She seems excited.

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She would be, she's been asking when we'd do this forever.

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Yeah and I kept asking her not to do that.

[He rubs Eames' chest again.]

I didn't want you to feel pressured.

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It's fine. I can handle a little peer pressure.

[Eames sighs and puts his laptop aside since he's obviously not getting anything done with it right now, and puts an Arm around Arthur.]

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[Arthur hums and then lets the silence sit for a beat.]

I'm excited too.

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Mm, let's see how you feel after the first fifty years.

[Because obviously they're going to spend all of time together from here, there's no question in Eames' mind.]

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[Arthur grins, nosing into Eames' shoulder.]

Dom told me Mal didn't threaten separation until year seventy-eight. I think the fact that marriage was still under the jurisdiction of the Catholic church when she was born may have affected her opinion on monogamy.

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[Eames laughs and shakes his head.]

I can't imagine what she'd be like otherwise.

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[Arthur shakes his head too, sighing after a moment.]

You shouldn't, uh - [he clears his throat and tries to keep his tone light] - feel obligated to stay with me, either. This isn't about that.

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[Eames barks a sudden laugh at that.]

You really don't need to worry about that.

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[Arthur lifts his head to look at Eames.]

It's not worry, it's the truth. Plenty of vampires turn their partners and then guilt them into sticking around. That's not me.

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I appreciate that, but I've thought long and hard about this enough to know being with you is a bonus, not the reason.

[He looks at Arthur with a light smirk pulling at his lips.]

Besides, you know the only person who's ever been able to guilt me into anything is my mother.

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[Arthur laughs and leans in to give Eames a kiss.]

It had to be said.

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Consider my worries allayed.